06-25-2010, 03:30 AM
This might sound like a sop story, but last night I had a horrible dream, I honestly think the worst I had. This might not feel the same for you, but it's for me.
We got a dog about a year ago from the RSPCA, tortured, abandoned and frightened. She was sick when we got her, I love her dearly, walk her almost every day, let her sleep on my bed, she sleeps beside me when waiting for my sisters and more. She's an amazing dog, quiet, delicate and just a great friend to have. I would never harm her, she's always nervous and anxious, afraid we might abandon her.
Last night I had a dream, about me needing to kill dogs for no reason. I had just killed one dog and thrown it away, then a dog about my dogs size comes up to me, I'm trying to kill it by stabbing it, kicking it, even almost cutting it's eye, it wouldn't die, it would just come back to me, and it was sad, in pain and so much. Something came over me, and I take the dog out of guilt and sorrow, and raise it as my pet. Here's the part saddening me and confusing me, at the end of my dream, I think something bad happened to the dog, I feel like I'm the one to blame, I don't know what happened, I can't remember.
I would never harm a dog, I love any dog, no matter what type, size, whatever. Dogs are my favourite animal, as I'm writing this my dog is on my bed. I feel guilt and sorrow from harming that dog in my dream, IN MY DREAM.
Am I normal or insane or whatever? I feel guilty for harming it, even though I know it's just a dream.
We got a dog about a year ago from the RSPCA, tortured, abandoned and frightened. She was sick when we got her, I love her dearly, walk her almost every day, let her sleep on my bed, she sleeps beside me when waiting for my sisters and more. She's an amazing dog, quiet, delicate and just a great friend to have. I would never harm her, she's always nervous and anxious, afraid we might abandon her.
Last night I had a dream, about me needing to kill dogs for no reason. I had just killed one dog and thrown it away, then a dog about my dogs size comes up to me, I'm trying to kill it by stabbing it, kicking it, even almost cutting it's eye, it wouldn't die, it would just come back to me, and it was sad, in pain and so much. Something came over me, and I take the dog out of guilt and sorrow, and raise it as my pet. Here's the part saddening me and confusing me, at the end of my dream, I think something bad happened to the dog, I feel like I'm the one to blame, I don't know what happened, I can't remember.
I would never harm a dog, I love any dog, no matter what type, size, whatever. Dogs are my favourite animal, as I'm writing this my dog is on my bed. I feel guilt and sorrow from harming that dog in my dream, IN MY DREAM.
Am I normal or insane or whatever? I feel guilty for harming it, even though I know it's just a dream.