06-07-2010, 09:35 PM
So here's the deal if you feel like you are missing out on life (or bored) and need to vent post your story.
This is mine:
Just the other day I was asked to go swimming with a few friends and I refused the opportunity. I know it is because of my loss of self-esteem. I have always been confident in my decisions, actions and thoughts, but after high school I gained a few pounds and it has been psychological warfare. I started to get out more and go the extra mile to regain my confidence, but it saddens me how much I am missing out because of this minor setback.
I know that I am making myself feel this way and even though I know that I am a genuine person who has more to offer than just looks, I cannot seem to shake the insecurity. I remember back in intermediate school I would tease other kids about there weight because I was so afraid that I would become like them. I totally deserve all that has come with gaining weight ("OMG, James is that you? Holy crap you got fat," "You look horrible," "Fat crap"). Even though I would put others down about there weight because of my own insecurities I know it was not right. (I have mended all relationships ruined by my ignorance since then =])
This has been, thanks to my optimism, a wonderful experience. I am grateful for all that has happened in my life (good and bad) because if I have never gone through those things I would not be the person I am today. I have come a long way from being that immature loner. Today I judge no one because I know that everyone has a story and I have always been one for stories
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So I am trying to rebuild my confidence... so maybe I will no longer miss any more life opportunities!
This is mine:
Just the other day I was asked to go swimming with a few friends and I refused the opportunity. I know it is because of my loss of self-esteem. I have always been confident in my decisions, actions and thoughts, but after high school I gained a few pounds and it has been psychological warfare. I started to get out more and go the extra mile to regain my confidence, but it saddens me how much I am missing out because of this minor setback.
I know that I am making myself feel this way and even though I know that I am a genuine person who has more to offer than just looks, I cannot seem to shake the insecurity. I remember back in intermediate school I would tease other kids about there weight because I was so afraid that I would become like them. I totally deserve all that has come with gaining weight ("OMG, James is that you? Holy crap you got fat," "You look horrible," "Fat crap"). Even though I would put others down about there weight because of my own insecurities I know it was not right. (I have mended all relationships ruined by my ignorance since then =])
This has been, thanks to my optimism, a wonderful experience. I am grateful for all that has happened in my life (good and bad) because if I have never gone through those things I would not be the person I am today. I have come a long way from being that immature loner. Today I judge no one because I know that everyone has a story and I have always been one for stories
.So I am trying to rebuild my confidence... so maybe I will no longer miss any more life opportunities!
