04-03-2011, 01:00 AM
So, this is not so much for support for me as it is a "dump" of how I feel, just need to get it out and maybe get input.
I am in a "waiting" situation. I love her (name is Alexa) and I am 99% percent sure she loves me too (1% is of course the little voice in your head that asks "What if?") she has told my sister, and told me several times and is still really affectionate around me.
Backstory:
Current:
Misc.
Thank you for reading and any feedback would be nice.
I am in a "waiting" situation. I love her (name is Alexa) and I am 99% percent sure she loves me too (1% is of course the little voice in your head that asks "What if?") she has told my sister, and told me several times and is still really affectionate around me.
Backstory:
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We have known each other for 4 years, I am now 19, she is now 17 turning 18 on April 22. We were together for 2 years, and I have not seen her for the past year and a half, save Christmas Eve and last week. She has moved to Utah to finish High school.
Current:
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She is graduating on the 14th, and moving back to California on the 15th.
I love her so much, and I had asked her last time if she still loved me and believed in second chances, she replied "Yes, I still love you. But I can't have a relationship when I move back. I have other stuff to do, I have to get my life in order."
I will wait for her, I love her. Love is used so lightly nowadays it's almost pointless to say it. But I honestly love her, I am so strongly attracted to everything about her. This situation just sucks, I'm more than a friend but I don't have the closeness of a boyfriend. I can't even really express how I feel without pushing the envelope and seeming pushy about us.
I love her so much, and I had asked her last time if she still loved me and believed in second chances, she replied "Yes, I still love you. But I can't have a relationship when I move back. I have other stuff to do, I have to get my life in order."
I will wait for her, I love her. Love is used so lightly nowadays it's almost pointless to say it. But I honestly love her, I am so strongly attracted to everything about her. This situation just sucks, I'm more than a friend but I don't have the closeness of a boyfriend. I can't even really express how I feel without pushing the envelope and seeming pushy about us.
Misc.
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Anyway, her birthday is soon and I plan to get her a nice necklace (not too personal, but a "more than friends" necklace) and hopefully she will like it.